♥Saturday, February 7, 2009
Love is when two unions come together and be in their own magical world. A world that's pure. A serene and peaceful world. And that is what we have. But that world, that peaceful place that we have, is like a fragile bubble that might burst at any time. Cuz what we have is a forbidden love.
In my race, my religion, love between the same sex is against the law. And perhaps not in my religion only but maybe in others too. Its not a normal thing when viewed by outside people. And that is what hurts me the most. To not be accepted and to be viewed as a disgrace by the public. True that the public does not play any part in my love and personal story. But when it comes to people close to my heart, being dissed at and viewed at differently hurts alot. And the painful comments that were thrown at me hit me deep inside.
I do not deny, despite the horrible arguments and the painful fights, I feel the best when I am with her. She takes me to places that i never knew existed. This thing we have here, the high that i get when i am with her is better and more exhilirating than any drug could possibly get.
Thus to not be accepted by her parents, it hurts me so much. They do love me but only as a daughter and not as an in law. What they wish to see is their eldest daughter be married off and have a baby. And i am denying them of that. I wish not to be the one stopping things but i just can't let her go. Heaven permits, i want to marry her and have children with her. She's the one for me in my eyes. And i wana spend the rest of my life with her, be it a beautiful world or a world thats filled with chaos.
I love her, dont you get it? I love her.
beautifully broken: Saturday, February 07, 2009
