♥Tuesday, October 19, 2010
i love my matrep bodoh! you can say the stupidest things and make me laugh so randomly. aper liza? kiter cute eh? thanks lah.
baby said, kali ni cfm you sangkot nyer. so i asked why does he say so. he replied me with a super confident look on his face, psl i da rase mcm da nk jadi daddy.
i swear i didnt mean to burst out laughin at his face. but it was super funny at that point of a time.
super random lah you ni. haha.
your minah loves you matrep. hahaha..
beautifully broken: Tuesday, October 19, 2010
haha. hey thanks! why gergerl? cuz my late mum used to call me that cuz im super manje n the only child in the family.. hence gergerl.. and it was made short form to gg.. =)
beautifully broken: Tuesday, October 19, 2010
♥Monday, October 18, 2010
huhu. i love it when you get worried over me.. but seriously baby, it wasnt on purpose lor! fell asleep with the phone on silent! just look at our conversation and tell me how sweet he can get! my lovely matrep bodoh. how do i not fall in love with you over n over again...
at 8am in the morning Baby calls n msgs.. red is his smses and green are mine..
Aper dh jdi?msg tk reply col tk angkat..u kt aner sbenar nyer nie???
Pgi2 jgn uat hal tau u..
Baek!u nk maen gini nye game,nk cari kmarahan i kn..nw i show u..
(proceeds to off hp till 11am... that is when i woke up, he calls and i pick up, explained everything and he laughed.. after which we hang up n i read the msgs.. which i replied..)
Baby nk show ape kt i? =(
Tk jdi..sbb u maseh ade..
U nk buat ape sebenarnyer?
Tkde pape..nw i hapi sbb u ade..
(the thing he did was to switch off his phone actually.. haha)
Mesti lah i ada! I akan smpi mati ada kt sisi u. I kan da ckp, jgn sekali sekala pn ingat I jauh dr u. I da jatoh utk u, n it will b till my dying days.
Mcm ane i tk pkr bukan2,dgn care tibe2 u mngilang..mcm ane i tk tkut..i btl2 sayang kn u n tknk khilangan u dlm hidup i..
U tak akan hilang i. i wana b ur wife syg, i janji. Itu lah satu2 nya impian i skg tau.
i syg u lebih dri u syg i..tdi mcm i nk cabut dri keje psl nk cri u..nk tahu knape tibe2 mcm nie..otak i dh pkr yg bukan2..
yg bukan2 tu mcm mane? u nk ge carik i kt mane?
mane tahu u tibe2 dgn org laen ke..cari u kt umah lah or kt ane2 yg i snggp cari u..
naseb baby buncit i tk tgl kn i..
Sayang u..!! Nari mlm i tk wrk..i nk mase i kt u..aper nk jdi, jdi lah..
i tk kisah aper nk jdi..pnt ke ngantok ke saket ke..i tetap nk jmpe u jgk..
i tk mara u lah..i dh tahu cite sbnar nye..lega ati i..
u lah yg puteri dlm hidup i uat slame2 nye.. tkde pape akn terjdi pade kite slaen mati..
how worried can you get when i dont reply or answer.. i love your concern, and i love that you dont immediately get into a fight with me when there is a misunderstanding.. im glad that you listened first to my explanation and even could laugh at your own sillyness for thinking silly stuffs in the first place.. and im so glad that you could put your guy ego aside to show me how afraid you were of losing me.. your jealousy, your concern, your capacity of loving me.. it just makes me feel whole again.. you push away all the bitterness n loneliness inside of me..
just something on the side. i love how we communicate..
Baby said, after marriage n after getting a baby. hopefully i dont work nor school. but i said that i'd be bored at home then. He said that i wouldn't get bored at all if our kid takes after him n his playful funny ways.. i said if we're lucky our child would follow his ways! if our child were to follow mine then i'd be super bored! Why he asks.. n i said, cuz he/she would be sleeping all the time! and at that remark he laughed and shook his head.
we're always doing that to each other, n i love it.. =)
I Love You Baby.
beautifully broken: Monday, October 18, 2010
♥Wednesday, October 13, 2010
sometimes i wished that i could speak fluent malay. it sucks not being able to communicate well with frens in your own language. and i hate it when i talk in malay and people start laughing at me cuz the words are all just not in the right place. i suck like that you know. and i surely hope that people don't start thinking that i am some wanna be cuz its an actual fact, my malay do suck real bad..
and i just hate it real bad when i just cant find the malay word for what i wanna say. and when people cant understand or get what i mean cuz i just cant find the word that i am looking for.. though i am sure very thankful that Baby has patience for me and try his bestest to help with my ever failing malay.
btw, see Girlfren Baby Wanie, my blog posts aren't suicidal nor depressing anymore right? i hope this would last, this happy honeymoon period. cuz i sure hate reading all my previous posts from 2 years ago..
This Saturday, 16th October 2010 is my bday btw. to those who do not know me, i sure have a fear of my own bday and i still do not really get why. the girls are planning to club at Azzura Sentosa, and Liza said that as sure as hell she is gonna get me in bikini when i am drunk. people please lah help me, where am i gonna keep my bulging tummy tell me?? but i guess when you are drunk it doesnt reaolly matter right? so we will see what happens when my bday arrives..
I love you lah Baby.
beautifully broken: Wednesday, October 13, 2010
♥Monday, October 11, 2010
i think you know Nana. im a talker, aku kan minah becok.. hahahaha
beautifully broken: Monday, October 11, 2010
♥Sunday, October 10, 2010
good evening to all my blog readers. ive got alot of stuffs that i could and should say. but i really do not know where to start. i so excited and fearful over a few things that i guess i just havent been behaving like me.
its just 6 days away, n i just really do not want to go anywhere can girls? can we do a post bday celebration on Halloween instead? cuz i think this year i just wanna spend time alone with my Baby Matrep/Sex Maniac/Pervert/Sweetie Pie.
the both of us have been having a few heart to heart conversations. and i think and feel and am sure that he is The One. the one that i am gonna live with for the rest of my life. it feels so different, it feels so good. and even if or when we do fight, its always settled in an adult way.
our engagement. we both have made it public. and we are gonna make it happen no matter what. i was so touched when i saw the mass sms you sent to every one in your contacts list. telling everyone the date of our engagement n using my real Siti Nurazillah name at that too.. i was glad that i didnt tell you to do it, i was glad and am still glad that you are proud to make me your fiance soon and your wife after that.
it just shows how much that you love me..
and oh girlfren, thanks for the wish.. i love you too.. and you wanna do a new tattoo in spanish? i think tht sounds great! i n Man was thinking of getting our horoscopes done when we are on our Bali trip. heard the tatts they make there is great? what do you think?
im gonna do it on my right leg. cuz i want him to be there with me every step of the way. lets write this down in malay can?
di mana pun kaki ini jejaki, dengan setiap langkah ku, kau akan ada disisi ku.
chey! gg speaking sak.
well what i mean is, i want you to be there in my every step in life. thus the horoscopes on my leg. you ni eh, ckp i pijak you plak. if i pijak you , i buat kat TAPAK kaki ok. hahaha.
i love you lah my matrep.
beautifully broken: Sunday, October 10, 2010
♥Monday, October 4, 2010
I have always felt that I could never completely make someone understand how I feel through spoken words. And it frustrates me so much that you know how much I love you but I just can’t express it the way that you want it. And it frustrates me that you are completely understanding. I know you’d give your life for me, I’d do the exact same for you.
The talk we had moments ago, just leaves me feeling sad. I wish that you don’t have to have this burden, this job, this.. This.. Forget it. I do not know how to put it in words about the situation that we are facing. All I know is, in my future I can foretell that there is you in it. I do not care whatever that you have to face, I do not care whatever it is that you have to achieve. All I know is, whatever that happens, I will be there by your side. And about what we have talked, I hope you respect my decision. I want it to happen as your wife. Thank you for having that serious discussion with me, thank you for wanting to guard and protect me. But I would rather it happen when I am your wife than nothing at all. I do not regret my decision, and I will be proud to be your wife no matter what happens. If you go as predicted, I want you to wait for me at the heavens as my husband.
I have never felt so alive till I met you. I have never felt the guilty and sinful desires as greatly when I am with you. I love the way things are, and I will love you no matter how bad or scary things will turn out to be. I’m glad you got me to be prepared for the future. For that I will treasure more greatly for every moment that we get to spend time together. I will keep each memory of us tightly secured in my heart. I will treasure you more than I do now.
There is no doubt about it. I love you, and I will keep loving you more each day. Just hold on to me and I’ll hold on to you. From the day we get engaged till the day we get married and the rest of our lives after that. I will love every single second that we get to be together on this very earth. And if you go before I do, as we have talked, I will pray for you. I will pray for us. And if we have children when you go, I will keep the legacy of you alive through them. I will keep the memory of you alive in their eyes. I will keep your name alive. I love you, no matter who you are. No matter what you have to get yourself into. I love you just for being you. I do. I really do.
beautifully broken: Monday, October 04, 2010
