♥Friday, May 28, 2010
You came, as though there was nothing wrong between us. You talked and moved as though you didn’t hurt me. You could happily say that you went to Zirca and had 15 coupons. Where is your conscience? Where is your heart? Where is your humanity? Where have your feelings gone to? The tears are still flowing and the heart still hurts. My wounds are still raw and you disrespected me by doing this. If your intention is to leave, leave and disappear. don’t think that you could just show up and take me away by merely saying sorry. If you wanted to reconcile, then show me. Show me that you are not the cruel heartless person that im seeing you as now. Not to go to some club and dance the night away. If you wanted to do that, then give me my stuff and go. You don’t have to linger. All your doing now is lingering amongst the ashes of what was once a solid and beautiful relationship. You will never ever understand me. You can never be my strong rock to support me. What we had is just games and fun, a stepping stone for you before you get to someone else. I have accepted this fact. And I will push myself to move on, to be stronger than before. To be stronger than YOU.
Now, I can never erase all the times that you had hurt me and put tears on my face. I admit, I do love you so deeply. But I pray to God, I don’t wanna love you in any kind of way anymore. I used to be weak and succumb to your wants, cuz ive always been afraid of you walking away. But no, im not afraid anymore cuz my broken heart is free. I will never forgive you, and I just wanna forget you. I will never regret having done your name above my heart. I said that being with you has changed me. And its true. Being with you has taught me plenty of things. If I was never with you, I will never know how its like living with a cruel and heartless person. Not to mention your family. I would never have known that pure evil could exist in the hearts of people. But now I know. My eyes, my ears, my mouth, body and soul have all bear witness to what you and your family could do. So now, I learn. I learn to steer clear of people like you. I learn, that trust and love shouldn’t come so easily. Words will always be words, and they will only be words. Action speaks louder than words. And your actions show how insincere you are. So in the future, I will seek for honesty, sincerity. Kindness and hope. Once bitten, twice shy. I will never fall into your web of deceit anymore.
Let the grieving begin, because healing comes after. Every dark skies has that ray of light, and though I do not know whats in store for me i will carry on.
beautifully broken: Friday, May 28, 2010
