♥Monday, October 4, 2010
I have always felt that I could never completely make someone understand how I feel through spoken words. And it frustrates me so much that you know how much I love you but I just can’t express it the way that you want it. And it frustrates me that you are completely understanding. I know you’d give your life for me, I’d do the exact same for you.
The talk we had moments ago, just leaves me feeling sad. I wish that you don’t have to have this burden, this job, this.. This.. Forget it. I do not know how to put it in words about the situation that we are facing. All I know is, in my future I can foretell that there is you in it. I do not care whatever that you have to face, I do not care whatever it is that you have to achieve. All I know is, whatever that happens, I will be there by your side. And about what we have talked, I hope you respect my decision. I want it to happen as your wife. Thank you for having that serious discussion with me, thank you for wanting to guard and protect me. But I would rather it happen when I am your wife than nothing at all. I do not regret my decision, and I will be proud to be your wife no matter what happens. If you go as predicted, I want you to wait for me at the heavens as my husband.
I have never felt so alive till I met you. I have never felt the guilty and sinful desires as greatly when I am with you. I love the way things are, and I will love you no matter how bad or scary things will turn out to be. I’m glad you got me to be prepared for the future. For that I will treasure more greatly for every moment that we get to spend time together. I will keep each memory of us tightly secured in my heart. I will treasure you more than I do now.
There is no doubt about it. I love you, and I will keep loving you more each day. Just hold on to me and I’ll hold on to you. From the day we get engaged till the day we get married and the rest of our lives after that. I will love every single second that we get to be together on this very earth. And if you go before I do, as we have talked, I will pray for you. I will pray for us. And if we have children when you go, I will keep the legacy of you alive through them. I will keep the memory of you alive in their eyes. I will keep your name alive. I love you, no matter who you are. No matter what you have to get yourself into. I love you just for being you. I do. I really do.
beautifully broken: Monday, October 04, 2010
