i guess what we needed was stress relieving.. maybe the over working and everyday being at the same old workplace has caused the both of us to reach point break.. well Sentosa & Lau Pa Sat was awesome.. i am glad that we got to have a day (& night) out for fun & stress relieving.. now going back to work refreshed & feeling great & energized.. back to focusing on getting the marriage down pat. 

i am pretty sure that we can make it.. just needs effort & time. hopefully things will get better with each passing day..

on a side note though, i do not need to wake up with msgs from 'her'. or to wake up with nightmares about you.. & i really do not want to experience deja vu's that leave my gut feeling super sick..

i know that she no longer has a place in your life like i do.. but my feelings & instincts i could not control even if i wanted to. i admit, im insecure & jealous. but it is only because i love you far too much. 

i hope that you could understand  my inferiority towards her & try to be a little more sensitive towards my feelings. i love you baby. i have always and will always.